I'm in this for the ice cream.

I have a first rehearsal tomorrow night. I'm a loser and can't go to bed 'cause I"m too excited. Like a six year old all messed up over Disneyland.

. . .only when you're six you're probably not going "what will I wear what will I wear???" or "I hope Mickey likes me" or "do I need a manicure? I should get a manicure." Yes. In my personal world, insecurity and anxiety coupled result unfailingly in vanity. Usually harmless.

I've got Being Bobby Brown on right now. They (Whitney and Bobby, of course) have broken into song and one of their children is trying to strangle them to shut them up. LOL, there are two kinds of people in this world. Singers and stranglers.

I've been waitressing nearly every day for about the past two weeks; I wanted to save some money for now that I"ll only be available for those less lucrative day shifts. Which is silly. Because I'll be paid enough by the show to supplement that income. Yes, I act to supplement my waitressing. When did that happen?? Kidding.

Anyhow, yesterday I was offered a role for October-December (after the one I start tomorrow). It would pay enough for me to quit waitressing at least through Christmas! So exciting! I need to make sure it's all going to fall into place and get more information before I accept. . .and drop out of the show I already agreed to do in October-November for virtually no pay. I hope that will all be okay. Just business, right? I have to take this other job because I'M POOR and stuff. They have plenty of time to replace me and I don't have a big part. I don't think I've ever quit a show. I'm. . .anxious. How's my hair? Kidding. I think I'm anticipating the guilt of letting them down and that's not a very productive way to feel. Non-constructive. Quit it, Annie!

I put up pics from my last two shows on my website). Vanity? Oui.